Eating Alone

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I always felt sad when I would see people eating alone-especially if they were elderly.
Today I sit in a booth alone. The funny thing is, I’m not lonely. I have a few friends and a wonderful companion to walk through life with. I don’t feel as sad as you would think someone eating alone would feel.

The even funnier thing is that this morning I was really sad. I was looking at past school mates and seeing their lives as portrayed on Facebook. I got really down on myself for how far it appears they have come in their lives and here I am living with my parents still trying to find myself.

I guess the thing is, sitting alone in this booth, I don’t feel that sadness. I don’t feel that pressure of having to be someone. Sitting in this booth alone, I am me. I am the best version of me I’ve ever been. And though I’m not the prettiest, the smartest, or the farthest along in my career path, I’m really at a happy place.

I have happy, healthy relationships and many blessings.

As I end my sushi lunch alone, I just have to share with you my fortune cookie.

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That’s the final irony I think.

(Photos by Angel Walck)

5 thoughts on “Eating Alone

  1. I remember the first time I ever walked into a cafe/restaurant by myself without anyone to meet there. I was 20 years old and living in Munich as an au pair. I walked past the closed door of the place several times before finally going in. As I sat alone I felt so conspicuous, that this just wasn’t right. That everyone was looking at me and judging me for being there alone (of course they weren’t, they were all enjoying there own meals.)
    But then I learned to enjoy these solo meals and outings. Now at 47 I eat out or sip coffee in a cafe more often alone than with others. It’s a meditative time of reflection or lovely daydreams.
    And a note on Facebook- it’s been documented that the lives people display on FB are unrealistically skewed to the positive: the fabulous new relationship/job/opportunity/vacation etc. Take your time. Enjoy the journey of self discovery. It’s the most amazing trip of all.

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    1. Thank you for your comment!! I know that what people show on facebook is not always as great as people make it seem. I just thought it was so itonic how i was feeling early that morning and when i went for lunch alone is when i realized how nice alone can be and how alone doesnt mean lonely. I definately see myself going out alone more often!

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